somebodyelsethanyou_987

When it comes to understanding women, I don't. Like, I don't fucking understand. I'm I ugly? Pretty? Atractive?

The same person that got love letters, also gets ghosted. There are so many women who look at me, so many, and sometimes they smile, or look at me when they think I'm not seeing them. I had been called handsome many times but still, I feel like a loser.

I really don't understand any of this. Lately I've been so tired, and this is just another reason to want to lay in bed and do nothing.

But I can't. There are many things that I have to do.

I crave love, and affection, but I'm still so lonely. I migth have been a little to fussy with women, but I think it's time that I grew up.



Happy Valentines Day.

Wow, two days of writing a diary, and I already failed writing one entry per day. However, there's an explanation for it.

Sometimes, if I use devices for too long, I will have what I have recently known as something called ocular migraine.

Basically, I would start seeing blinding light lines like the one in the image, which are super annoying and usually go hand in hand with headaches. It makes me unable to concentrate, and even if it only takes up a little part of my vision, it will still make me unable to see clearly.


So the other day I stayed home to study, but only like two hours into it, I started having one of these. I obviously got angry, as I haven't been so long with my computer, but still, it lasted (headache included) for an hour and so, and every time I try to use a device, IT WILL START AGAIN. So the rest of the day I was unable to use the computer and, thus, to write an entry.

However, it has gotten worse, as the next day, I started having them while being in class!!! I didn't understand why, as I haven't used any devices at all, and today, IT ALSO HAPPENED. It is starting to become very common, and I think I'm starting to lose sight. I'm really hypochondriac too, but still, I'm concerned.

Tomorrow I will go to the oculist to see what I can do about it, but meanwhile, it is being a little difficult for me to use devices and read, and I'm concerned that I might have to start using some low-intensity glasses to read, as I have mocked people with glasses for needing two pieces of glass to see many times.

It is kind of weird, as the last day I posted an entry, I went to the chiropractor, and I was attended by a lovely blind man. I had already gone there when I was ten, but still, I remembered him. He is such a great person and so humble. It is the kind of person I don't want to think much about, as nearly every time I think about people like him, I think how little they deserve to be in a world like ours.

I hope you have a great day.